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[May. 29th, 2006|12:47 am] |
So it has been awhile from my last update. Shit's been good. I re-met "this girl"... Christina. She is outstanding. I've never been in a relationship like this before. She can be just as goofy as me if not more. It's amazing. I've pretty much been living at her house. I can't remember the last time I've spent the night in my room. We think the same a lot of the time... most of the time. ahh i will finish this later... i'm having a really hard time concentrating. sheeeeeit
Time to die mr. bond |
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| Miss Michigan |
[Mar. 19th, 2006|03:27 am] |
Thanks to sara reminding me about mustard plug in an away message of her's.
So i opened iTunes to listen to mustard plug, first "you" then "mendoza" then "miss michigan".
I've never realized untill now how attached I am to there. I can't really imagine calling anywhere else home.
As Tom says "Detroitwhat" is my home. Even if it isn't in suburbia if I live downtown. I am going to have to live there.
Cause it's home.
Time to die mr. bond. |
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[Feb. 26th, 2006|02:47 am] |
okay so im totally gone... sara called i think, shit. It really made me think about how i miss her. Girls at scad are kinda eh well meh pretty much. Theres this one girl who is super independent and im really attracted to her. I figured out that im attracted to independent girls who can hold their own. thats awesome, if you can hold your own thats totally fuckin cool. some times i cant hold my own... other times i can but if you are a chick and you can hold your own and not be worried about other poeple and be caught up in stupid shit thats fuckin cool. okay so 12.5 shots maybe not that many... of so co have reeeeeallllly gottent tome me. and im ranting and raving.I dont know. shittttttty. i wanna be home where i know how things are. i wanna know whats going on.
i have never beeeen this much the way i am
does that make sense?
time to die mister bond. |
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[Dec. 31st, 2005|12:29 pm] |
Flashback to a year ago... almost exactly a year ago.
It's funny cause I've changed so much, but it's essentially the same thing happening.
For the better.
I'm happy about it. |
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[Sep. 29th, 2005|05:13 pm] |
YAYYY.... it's almost my birthday!! everybody's like KYLE WE'RE GONNA GET YOU SOOO FUCKED UP!... i dont know about them, but i like remember my times. and seeing that getting drunk is fun.. but the being hung over sucks, I don't think I'll be getting fucked up
yeah
but either way
whoooooohooo my fuckin birthday bitches |
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[Sep. 4th, 2005|05:49 am] |
yet again... what an evening. actually night... defenently 6am k... yeah.
woooohooo
yeah
wow
time to die mr. bond. |
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[Aug. 28th, 2005|09:28 pm] |
yesterday...
never doing THAT again... well I know I will, but I fucking hate relying on people. It makes me feel weak, and weak is something I don't want to be.
I've deturmined that leaving is going to be a good thing for me.
I've also deturmined that I don't know how big of a fan I am of physical relationships. I mean, its cool and all. hell i dont know.
I realized that I need to get to know as many people as possible to figure out what I like and don't like. At the moment I pretty much like every new person that I meet. The kids I grew up with are the ones that I can't stand now. It seems like time ruins people. The whole first impression thing I don't think exists in some cases. And the more and more I get to know people the weirder things get.
For example, I thought I knew how one of my best friends felt about me, but she totally changed my mind about that after I said something when I was intoxicated. I was just kidding around but apparently she didn't know that. I feel like an ass now, and I am fuckin confused about how she feels. Things will stay the same.
Other people seem to hurt me a lot more than i think they realize.
It's really bothering me how I know someone like the back of my hand, but I don't think they know me at all. I could cheer her up in like 2 seconds but if I am upset about something she gets angry with me and doesn't talk. That doesn't seem very fair.
College... more drama to come because of it, but hopefully people will mature a little bit.
In some cases I am sick of being the kid people think I am.
And in some other cases I just want to run away.
It's a good thing I actually can.
One more thing... I've deturmined to become a profesional Kiteboarder and travel the globe or move to an island where I can help the natives and kiteboard all day. |
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[Aug. 22nd, 2005|04:51 pm] |
Yeah, so I don't really even know what is going on anymore. I think school is coming up soon. And I think a bunch of my friends are leaveing soon. And I think that I haven't gotten hold of many of them. Shit's weird. And not a good weird.
I need a change.
A happy one.
One that I can comprehend. |
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[Aug. 15th, 2005|11:49 pm] |
wow... so i'm cleaning my room so i can get my shit together for college, and so my parents can sell our house and move away.
I found some crazy shit.
Get ready
First up: MEGAN LYNN SMITH
Hey Kyle! (Just to warn you, I was bored...)
I wonder if I can beat Jessie's note. Your concert last night was really good! Ours is next Tuesday and I don't think it will be good. After the concert me, Katie, Alissa, Steph, and Kelley went to Dairy Queen. It was so fun cuz me and Alissa made Steph laugh so hard that she cried and couldn't breath! OMG, yesterday track was so boring. I stayed by myself most of the time. When I wasn't alone, I was with Maxwell, walking around like and idiot. Luckily, I'll get to hang out with Jacklyn. Steph can't go cuz of cheerleading :( I really wish I could try out. Amanda was dissapointed that I didn't go to cheerleading, but that's okay. I'm kinda sick of her. Her attitude has changed so much. What are you running in the meet today? Me --> 100, 70, 200. I don't want to run the 200! That note from Jessie was "touching" but really strange. I'm having a really good day today! :) Guess what I'm gonna do to take up room!? I love you, I love you , I love you , I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and yeah, you get the point. :) I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me? Hehe. I wanna...
WELL! i gotta go, now (though)
Love ya!
Ps. I'm really really bored! It's lang arts.
Hugs, Kisses, and Cookies
Heart Megan
P.P.S. (or is it P.S.S.?) I LOVE YOU MORE!
WOW soo many more of those notes...
And now!
So kids do you remember when Kyle and Katie broke up and then Kyle went to a movie with Laura Holmes... well I didn't realize ( until now) that Laura actually wanted to break Kyle and Katie up... so she moved in with this...
On the plane ride back from NY she made a cootie catcher out of a napkin... here were the first choices: Oral, 69, Doggy, Regular
Then it went to the next level of the "catcher" 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8
Then the answers: Your tongue needs a work out; Kiss someone; Hold someones hand; You need to get some; You can't afford what you need; Yummy; What's your #; Come on over, I'll bite you
yeah so didnt even realize it at the time, but Laura worked her magic on me, and got my interest... Katie and I were almost over anyway, but she kinda decided to end it quicker. wow
what a crazy bitch...
Just two specific events in Kyle's past to post.
Time to die Mr. Bond. |
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[Aug. 15th, 2005|06:38 pm] |
Sooooo yesterday...
Was fun
Was funny
Was cute
Was chill
Was relaxing
Was terrific
Wasn't long enough
Thank you for spending time with me. |
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[Aug. 13th, 2005|10:49 pm] |
[ ] I am bisexual or homosexual.
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am
[x] I don't like Bush because from what I hear, he is dumb.
[x] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[ ] I am for Bush.
[x] I listen to political music. (rage against the machine....not for the views tho)
[ ] I collect comic books.(yeah, that's right.)
[ ] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I watch the news.
[x] I own over 5 rap CDs
[x] I own an ipod or mp3
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic
[x] I love Disney movies.
[x] I am a sucker for hair/eyes
[x] I don't kill bugs
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I paid for that cell phone ring.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I bake well.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie. (from megan in 8th grade)
[x] I have a job
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[x] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.
[ ] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[ ] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I've been out of this country.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I see a therapist.
[x] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I am comfortable with being me.
[x] I play computer games/video games.
[x] Gotten lost in your city.
[x] Saw a shooting star
[x] Been to any other countries besides the united states
[x] I Had a serious Surgery.
[x] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[x] I have Kissed a Stranger
[x] Hugged a stranger
[x] Been in a fist fight
[ ] Been arrested
[ ] Laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
[ ] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] Made out in an elevator
[x] Swore at your parents
[x] Kicked a guy where it hurts
[x] Been close to love
[x] Been to a casino.
[ ] Been skydiving
[x] Broken a bone
[ ] Skipped school
[ ] Flashed someone
[ ] Saw a therapist
[ ] Done the splits
[x] Played spin the bottle
[ ] Gotten stitches
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour <----- impossible
[x] Bitten someone
[x] Been to Niagara Falls
[ ] gotten the chicken pocks
[ ] Kissed a member of the same sex
[x] Crashed into a friend's car
[ ] Been to Japan
[x] Ridden in a taxi
[x] Shoplifted
[ ] Been fired
[ ] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
[x] Stole something from your job
[x] Gone on a blind date
[x] Lied to a friend
[ ] Had a crush on a teacher/sub
[ ] Celebrated mardigras in New Orleans
[ ] Been to Europe
[ ] Slept with a co-worker
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Had children
[x] Saw someone dying
[ ] Been to Africa
[x ] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[x] Been to Canada
[ ] Been to Mexico
[x] Been on a plane
[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[ ] Thrown up in a bar
[x] Eaten Sushi.
[x] Been snowboarding
[x] Been Skiing
[x] Met someone in person from the internet
[x] Been moshing at a concert
[ ] Been to a motor-cross show
[ ] Lost a child
[x] Gone to college
[ ] Done hard drugs
[x] Taken painkillers
[x] Had someone cheat on you
[x] Miss someone right now |
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[Jul. 30th, 2005|01:32 am] |
hahaha sooooo....
How are you?
Well I'm good
What have you learned?
That being lead on is completley wonderful especially when you realize and can go with it
Did you have a good time?
Hell yes, yet again... goes on the pushed me to do stuff I wouldn't normally do list.
Oh what an evening. |
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[Jul. 25th, 2005|10:16 pm] |
hey kid,
fuck you. why can't you be sad more often? it's fun to be depressed. you should try.
love,
me |
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[Jul. 22nd, 2005|08:47 pm] |
Ok... so now, a follow up.
Main goal: focus on the future... what is out there... what directions I can and will be going... how now I should and am ready to get out of here.
Wasn't that quick?
Keep your eye on the prize. Which prize you ask? The one that you think is best for you even if it isn't what you want right now. |
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[Jul. 21st, 2005|10:53 pm] |
Why is this place so great to bitch at? Why should I need something like this to make me feel better? Damn you live journal... damn you.
So I'm leaving, so I'm not mature enough, so I told myself I wouldn't go away with a "girlfriend", so I told myself I wouldn't be one of those cats freshman year who spend hours on the phone with their "lover". I said I wouldn't do it. Said. Sweet. Then why do I want to now?
If it is a spur of the moment thing then I shouldn't have waited that long. So I kissed her... some might say "so what?" yeah so what, It's just a kiss isn't it? Ha, there is no way it was/is "just a kiss".
This is her.
This is 3 years of my life.
This is waiting, and wondering, and thinking all too much. "What would it be like?" I want to find out. I've wanted to find out. Why is timing so cruel... right now... I was so excited to leave. So excited to get away from this place that I've lived in for eighteen years. This same spot with no changes.
Now change is staring me in the face, and I am/ could be so happy with what I have now. What do I have now?
I haven't been able to move on because I don't know what it is like. I want to know what it's like so badly. I want to know her even better than I do now. Maybe leaving is the best tool for me to learn with. I can learn about myself, seeing that I haven't ever left home.
But I know what I want right this second. |
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[Jun. 24th, 2005|12:14 am] |
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I hate to let this truth get out, but I am none of those things. |
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[Jun. 14th, 2005|12:32 am] |
haha yeah...
I hate this part |
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[Jun. 5th, 2005|11:08 am] |
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so what just happend? |
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| HOUSE IS WHERE IT'S AT |
[May. 31st, 2005|11:38 am] |
Holy poop Batman!
I fuckin saw Richie Hawtin at Fuse-in aka DEMF last night...
Holy fucking shit
Let me say that again
Holy fucking shit
OKay so pretty much everyone was on something there, but whats a rave with out kids on drugs?
They dance better anyway.
Thats what I would like to do...
lay down a dj set infront of a huge crowd who just go nuts when you walk on stage
everyone was moving... well nearly everyone |
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